Story My love

Hi guys, this time I want to tell about my love story in this country from first come until this moment. I have had come here on 15th November 2006, n so many kind i have felt, from happy, sad, dispointed, angry, n every thing bitter n sweet. for this moment i want to tell about my love story. First year I have came here, I have couple with girl from Shah Alam, Kuala Lumpur. She is same class with me, in the serious I will couple with here not serious for the moment, I just want improve my English, she is good in English, coz first time I came here I cant speak English, I just know basic grammar of English. First think if I couple with her I can improve my English. First time I want to couple with her, the place on Putri Beach, Malacca. At that place I tell what I fell to her, same like normal people want to say everything from them heart to some they love. Than we have lived together in my house. We have had together every time and every moment for that time. Until that moment we have break, I can’t do this relationship, coz she have so many rules to me. I like freedom, I don’t want girl make confine my life, I cant do this I can’t do that, I want go here she want follow, I don’t like it. She can follow me what ever I go, but she must know what situation.

After few weeks I have broken with her, and than I have couple with girl from Malacca, she have lived near from me, she have had work at café, First time I know her, that time I am and my friend Maca, we want to eat but the café we always eat from the same café till we are bored eat from that café, and than we suggest to dinner on the new café of corner street. From that moment I have saw her every time, coz she always smile if looked of me. Than until few days I always dinner on that café, than I think to know more about her, and the thirds day I want to know her, I was did like stupid boy. I have written my name n my number phone at small peace of paper. For the next, time I want to pay my dinner, I have deliberated to throw the small peace of paper in front of girl. And after few hours she got that paper, she have had massage me, and we introduce each other. From few days, I always tell what I fell from my heart about my felling to her, and than we are couple. Than u want know guys, we have had some crazy did, we meet every time she have back from her work, we always meet every at 04.00 am. She always comes out from her house from windows, and she back after Azan Subuh, this some crazy think we did. Until one time I want to introduce her to my family. That time on new years 2008, my family have had came here. Than u want to know guys what respond my mother to her, my mom so angry, but I don’t know why my mom was do that. Coz of that, she chance her mind to stop our relationship.

After I have broken with her, than I have couple with girls from Kelantan, she studied on UITM on Kuantan. The story I have couple with her, coz one time she have came to met her boyfriends that boy is my house met, and we just be acquainted with her. For one month we never call and massage coz I didn’t have her number, until I got her number phone. And than we talking2 like friend till on 20th May 2008 we declare to couple. First think I want make her to serious relationship. But until one time we don’t have same thinking and reason. And than we have broke. With her so many moments we have did together although we are far, but we can still for our relationship. Till that time after new years on 2009, and that time I have know one girl, she is from Ampang, Kuala Lumpur. I have known her from internet, first time we know on play poker online. We have had web came, and we chance number. From that time we chance number and we lost contact for few days till 28th December 2008 than we declare to couple, but that moment I have couple also with girl from Kuantan, but I felt I can’t continue with her. And I broke with her, but I have continued with girl from Ampang till now. With girl from Ampang so many story we have had. But for this story I can’t tell to u all guys, this story only us know, I am sorry for not tell to u guys. But I am happy with her. Till few months everything have broken, we are both break for our relationship. I dont know what happen with my love story.
everything at the end always break, but i must know everything we are start will be have finish, but everything depend what kind of our ending. any someone cant accept it, but we must can. For me whatever ending my love story, but i must happy. Coz if we are happy everything our prob we will easy n we wont have prob. DONT WORRY BE HAPPY. HA..HA..HA..HA.. E..E..EO.

Thanks for u all guys for heard my sort story. Thanks for your attention guys. For the next time I will explain about my story to u all.

From my heart

Started on November 2006 in abroad. I think i will have new life, i think i will have new experience here, but i have felling in this country, i am so so so boring, everything rules, but all rules like i cant accept in my mind. i cant do this, i cant do that, all rules same like in my country. this country have different rules on every state, in this state like this, in that state like that, all very confuse, i dont know which rules i must follow. this country made different rules for abroad have visit here. It streak on ly for people from my countries, why they do like this. All people same in front of eyes God, but they do, some like fucker.

This country have forgot, from where they come from. More people first come n made growth this country more than more from my country. This country come growth like now it because whom, its cause people from my country. After this country successes n growth, they throw people from my country, n they make different rules for people my country. What is it???? any people can answer it. What kind of this country.

Cause i just want be batter in my life n want to make proud my family's, i must can n must will to stay here, to study here, to success here, if not because that i will not here. I just prayed to my God, give me support, give me power to can here n everything will be ok, hope i will success here. So much money my family's fees for my life here. Hope i wont make they dispointed.

I am so so so boring here, hope i will get scholarship here, so it can make easy for my family's. i dont know what must i said. i am so so so be crazy here. hope it will have solution. Amin.

Kegilauan

disaat diri ku ingin mengenal sesuatu yang indah
disaat itulah dia menghilang
disaat aku baru terpesona dengan sesuatu
disaat itulah dia mengilang
disaat getir2 itu ingin ku rasa kan
disaat itu juga semua nya menghilang
menghilang tak tau kemana harus kucari

andaikan aku dapt sbuah cara aja
untuk dapt mengdekatinya
namun aku tak tau apa itu semua hanya impian
ingin sekali aku mengenalinya
ingin sekali aku tau siapa dia
bagaimana dia
namun apa kah hanya sampai disini
aku dapat mengenalinya
aku tak tau harus gimana lagi
aku tak tau harus mencarinya dimana lagi

Kebingungan

Seakan percaya dan tak percaya yang kulami hari ini. Seakan begitu banyak pertanyaan yang ada di otakku ini. Seolah apa yang telah kuli-hat hari ini seperti maut bagiku yang tak tau kapan akan perginya. Seakan semua ini masih mustahil bagiku.
Aku hanya dapat melihat dirinya yang tenang seolah tak bersalah. Aku hanya dapat melihat ketegaran dirinya, yang dengan tenang meniupkan asap putih yang selama ini belum pernah kulihat dirinya seperti ini.

Seakan semua ini seperti alusinasi yang memang aku tak percaya lang-sung. Namun semuanya udah terjadi dan aku udah tak dapat membalikkan waktu yang udah berlalu. Sudah nasi menjadi bubur udah susah untuk mengembalikannya.

Namun dari semua kejadian ini tetap seakan aku yang dipersalahkan. Apa yang aku udah lakukan. Hanya karena surat elektronik yang tak ku per-lihatkan dengan dia sampai dia melakukan semua ini. Namun itu bukan sebuah alibi yang bias diterima.
Ntahlah…………ntahlah………… hanya waktu dan keenaran yang dapat menjawab smua ini. Biarlah aku terimanya walaupun pahit.

Sebongkah Cahaya

Awal perjumpaan ku dengannya, yang tak pernah dibayangkan.
Sesuatu yang seperti takkan mungkin terjadi,
diantara diriku dan dirinya.
Dan setelah sekian lama,
Kabar yang tak pernah ku dengar lagi tentangnya.
Sampai suatu saat aku bertanya,
Dan mencari jawaban atas kekalutan ku,
yang telah lama aku pendam.

Suatu hari aku menemukan sebongkah cahaya
Dan saat itu aku mencoba mendekati cahaya itu
Untuk mencari jawaban,
Atas perasaan ku yang tersimpan…
Atas kekalutanku yang kurasakan…

Kala ayam berkokok
Dan kala matahari mulai bersinar
Aku terdiam terpaku
Jantung pun berdebar tak berhenti
Akhirnya aku menemukan jawaban
Atas apa yang ku rasa kan padanya

Sesuatu yang tak pernah ku jangka
Sesuatu yang tak pernah ku pikir
Akhirnya sobongkah cahaya itu
Sekarang mengiringi hari2 ku
Dan memberikan kekuatan pada hatiku.

Aku akan menjaga cahaya itu
Sampai akhir hayatku
Dan aku takkan membiarkan cahaya itu
Akan redup …
Akan pudar …
Akan hilang dari kehidupanku …
Karena hari2ku takkan terang tanpanya
Karena langkahku takkan terarah tanpanya
Dialah inspirasi bagiku
Jangan pernah kau pergi dari ku

Aku ingin kau selalu bersamaku…
Aku ingin berbagi denganmu…
Baik saat itu senang atau pun susah
Aku ingin menjalaninya bersamamu.

Aku tak tau apa yang kurasakan saat ini
Seakan seluruh badan ku terasa panas
Seakan seluruh badan ku terasa membara
Akan kah ini akhir smua cerita ku
Akan kah seperti ini akhir cerita cintaku

Diasaat malam akan berganti pagi
Suara anjing yang menggonggong yang kudengarkan
Saat suara sunyi keheniman malam yang kurasa

Aku pun tak tau apa yang terjadi
Semua tanda2 seperti akan memberikan isyarat
Isyarat yang tak ingin kuharapkan
Akan sebongkah cahaya itu akan pergi dariku

Aku tak ingin sebongkahan cahaya itu pergi begitu saja
Karena dia amat berarti bagiku
Begitu banyak cobaan yang harus kulalui
Begitu banyak rintangan yang harus kujalani
Semua ini apakah hanya cobaan atas cintaku???

Kepada siapa aku harus bertanya
Akan semua resah perasaan yang kurasakan…
Akan semua kegundahan yang kurasakan…

Bayangan

Bayangan lama terus hadir dihari2ku
Bayangan yang membuat ku ingat akan hati…
Akan hati orang yang telah kusakiti
Akan hati orang yang telah kepermainkan
Karena semua itu kulakukan,
Karena aku tidak menemukan cinta dihatiku.
Cinta yang hanya sementara hadir dihatiku.
Dan sebagian hanya tau untuk menyakitkan hati ku saja.

Sekian lama ku menutup hatiku
Karena aku belum menemukan apa itu cinta
Aku harap akan menemukannya

Sampai suatu saat kubertemu bayangan semu
Namun bayangan itu semakin nyata
Karena dia telah hadir dihatiku
Dengan kehadiranmu wahai bayangan nyata itu
Tunjukka kepadaku arti akan cinta itu
Karena aku ingin sekali merasakan cinta itu
Walaupun hanya sekali kurasakan dalamhidupku

Aku sangat menginkan cinta itu hadir dan tumbuh
Dalam hati ku yang terdalam ini.

Apa itu Cinta

Cinta…

Cinta itu sulit untuk diartikan…

Cinta itu memerlukan pengorbanan…

Ada orang yang rela sengsara karena cinta…

Ada orang yang tak percaya lagi dengan apa itu cinta…

Ada orang yang rela nyawa jadi taruhannya…

Namun sebenarnya cinta itu tidak seperti itu…

Cinta itu indah…

Cinta itu harus dijalani dengan ikhlas…

Cinta itu harus dijalani dengan hati yang paling dalam…

Selama ini banyak orang yang hanya menjalani cinta…

Seolah semudah membalikkan telapak tangan,

sehingga cinta itu mudah dipermainkan…

Masih banyak orang yang tidak mengerti apa itu cinta…

Dan bagaimana untuk menghargai itu cinta…

Jadi mereka hanya menjalani cinta dengan nafsu belaka…

Tanpa memikirkan hati pasangannya,

apakah pasangannya bahagia atau tersiksa,

mereka mudah untuk mempermainkan hati …